“I always knew that one day I would take this road,
But yesterday, I did not know that today would be the day”
Nagarjuna
Some say there is a journey in each of us. Maybe we are
simply the outpouring of some higher power’s journey – like the brilliant video
game designer that says, “Let’s see what happens when we try THIS…” then simply
lets go.
I believe we do have journeys within us – which began long
ago; perhaps many lifetimes. What I do not know (yet) is what my particular
journey is. And in the last year of my fourth decade on this planet – and for
those of you not counting on your hand – that would actually be my 30s, not 40s,
thank you very much – I wonder sometimes if I shouldn’t know by now.
I have many friends whose journeys have taken them into the
breathtakingly humbling and beautiful world of parenthood and family and the
sweet giving over to another’s needs before their own. Other friends have
devoted themselves to a single cause – healthcare, building a school in Africa,
the creative process, teaching, and the list of course goes on and on.
Throughout my life, I often perceived some
new “destination” held the answer. I moved around a lot. And I
changed jobs a lot. I also dabbled in many religions and spiritual practices, spinning
a simplified amalgamation that continues to bubble and stew. Lately, Kundalini
Yoga breathed and stretched and powered its way generously into this little hotdish.
Today, I feel more peaceful than ever – without the desire to
change anything except the part of me that thinks that the answer, the
destination, the road I must be on, is out
there. The whole journey has been
happening within all this time. A great
forgiveness was necessary. A great acceptance is still in progress. And an even greater and grander “letting go” is
my secret and ultimate wish.
In nature, we see the utter fluidity and freedom of movement
in birds and fish, or the flexible, mutable strength of plant-life. And in human
nature, it is there too, in those few amazing souls who allow everything to
just be - trusting that all is well, despite the melee others may be viewing in
the same scene. The gorgeous result in all of these instances is that they flow,
they glide and they get in the very groove with God in some sort of creative
mash-up.
Whether through meditation and breath work, prayer, or
simple all-encompassing love - it can happen. We find that there is something
beautiful to appreciate in every circumstance, every so-called “problem.” As
humans, we have that extra cognitive capability to take complete ownership of our
thoughts and what those thoughts are creating around us. And perhaps it is only
Grace that allows us to release it back into the flow.
It is this grace I wish for myself. And it is this grace I
wish for you today.
All my love,
b.
