"I live my life in growing orbits, which move out over the things of this earth. Perhaps I shall never achieve the last, but that will be my attempt. For I am circling around God. Around the ancient tower. And I have been circling for a thousand years. And I still do not know if I am a falcon, or a storm, or a great song."
~ Rainer Maria Rilke
I have always adhered to the philosophy that each of us walks an individual path - some along a fairly straight trajectory, others meandering, circling back, forgetting the path, finding it and then diverging again. The more scenic route, shall we say.
That's why I love the Rilke poem so much - the idea that instead of a long path from here to there - we are simply floating on air round and round, ever reaching new heights, expanding our perspective and vantage point. Yet still somehow tethered to a central structure - our core, our heart, our soul's inner mission.
Why am I talking about circles and paths today? Because after nearly five months in California - of soaking in the sun, friends and family... and sending out nearly 40 resumes and job applications... I have received three and only three call-backs. And all three interviews are happening... now. Life is funny, no?
And you want a little more irony? The opportunities are in the following locations: 1) Connecticut (yes... the very same Connecticut from which I just packed up my life and moved across the country, on purpose, not so long ago), 2) San Diego (the place from which I moved to Connecticut eleven years ago) and 3) Sacramento (the place from which I moved to San Diego two years prior to that).
If any of these opportunities become real offers, I will be making a turn back to a place I have already been. Something familiar and known. As a wanderer by nature, this is not always the feeling that I seek. I love different and new and challenging and those things that take my breath away because it's raw and untouched by my mind's eye.
But this is one of the best tricks of life, isn't it? To find a way to meet every single day as if it is the only one I've ever lived. The only time I've seen that butterfly or touched that leaf or hugged my mom or giggled with a friend.
Perhaps there are times that you feel stuck… as though despite your desires, you are in the same place you were several months - or even several years ago. But I am learning to see that with every new challenge that we take on or conquer… With every new ounce of faith that confirms that life will and always does take care of us. With every new desire to nurture the really important things in life - we are changed.
~ Rainer Maria Rilke
I have always adhered to the philosophy that each of us walks an individual path - some along a fairly straight trajectory, others meandering, circling back, forgetting the path, finding it and then diverging again. The more scenic route, shall we say.
That's why I love the Rilke poem so much - the idea that instead of a long path from here to there - we are simply floating on air round and round, ever reaching new heights, expanding our perspective and vantage point. Yet still somehow tethered to a central structure - our core, our heart, our soul's inner mission.
Why am I talking about circles and paths today? Because after nearly five months in California - of soaking in the sun, friends and family... and sending out nearly 40 resumes and job applications... I have received three and only three call-backs. And all three interviews are happening... now. Life is funny, no?
And you want a little more irony? The opportunities are in the following locations: 1) Connecticut (yes... the very same Connecticut from which I just packed up my life and moved across the country, on purpose, not so long ago), 2) San Diego (the place from which I moved to Connecticut eleven years ago) and 3) Sacramento (the place from which I moved to San Diego two years prior to that).
If any of these opportunities become real offers, I will be making a turn back to a place I have already been. Something familiar and known. As a wanderer by nature, this is not always the feeling that I seek. I love different and new and challenging and those things that take my breath away because it's raw and untouched by my mind's eye.
But this is one of the best tricks of life, isn't it? To find a way to meet every single day as if it is the only one I've ever lived. The only time I've seen that butterfly or touched that leaf or hugged my mom or giggled with a friend.
Perhaps there are times that you feel stuck… as though despite your desires, you are in the same place you were several months - or even several years ago. But I am learning to see that with every new challenge that we take on or conquer… With every new ounce of faith that confirms that life will and always does take care of us. With every new desire to nurture the really important things in life - we are changed.
Life is always offering options to us... either encouraging us to stay the course... or to get our butts in gear and do something different. If you feel stuck in Groundhogs Day – pay attention. Keep listening and saying yes to the strongest feeling that comes to you. Keep dreaming and expecting it all to work in your favor. In time… it most surely will. But you may have to take action.
I will keep you posted if there is any news to share – and believe me, I am quite ready to have this kind of news to share. For now, I simply wish you all the loft and air beneath you – and the inner knowing to identify when the time is right to zoom zoom zoom towards everything that you've ever wanted.
Love and hugs,
b.
I will keep you posted if there is any news to share – and believe me, I am quite ready to have this kind of news to share. For now, I simply wish you all the loft and air beneath you – and the inner knowing to identify when the time is right to zoom zoom zoom towards everything that you've ever wanted.
Love and hugs,
b.
